The Days Of No Loss

NOTE: If you're the type to think that overweight people talk too much about it and never do anything about it...this post isn't for you.   

Things have been going OK since the last post. I lost the weight I gained while dieting Biggest Loser Style plus two pounds...all in record time. Sadly, I'm almost two weeks into no weight loss. I haven't gained weight, so that's good, but it's still a little discouraging.

Don't get me wrong, I've accepted the idea that a pound a week is a good thing over time.  This took some adjusting, but if it stays off...well then, I'm 30 pounds thinner/fitter by fall.

I comfort myself during these days of no loss with the very real fact that I did lose 14 pounds in the first week of eating more and exercising less.  I was told to expect a small surge followed by a slowing down into a regular pattern of loss. So, my body may be adjusting to what most people would agree was a large amount to lose in a short period of time.

I pushed it a little with exercise the week before Easter. It goes against my nature to not push it, so four mile hikes at a good clip seemed like just a little bit of a deviation from one mile walks twice a day.  My doctor (Tom) did explain carefully and emphatically why I needed to exercise less for awhile...to restart my metabolism...to retrain myself and undue years of damage. My body needs to learn that I can be trusted to:

• Feed it-no more binge/deprivation
• Not push it-no more 13 mile hikes to Pulaski on little fuel

I'm trying to teach myself that a little patience in this arena is good.  But heck, I want to be thin and fit right? 

I do. I really do. However, not for three months only to gain it all back.

I recently told a friend the good news is I'll never weigh my highest weight again. If I did another "plan" and managed to drop 100 pounds by Labor Day, I know the odds of me gaining it back are great. I don't have a great track record when it comes to weight loss. I have yet to prove (to myself) that I can be trusted. So, turning this over to Tom's instruction is the best way of helping me take control...sounds odd, I know. Yet, empowering myself by letting someone else take the wheel for awhile is a relief, plus as he reminded me...it's all up to me anyway.

There's a trust factor here. He believes that without deprivation and with more calories that I had been eating in weeks prior to seeing him that I can let go of this weight.  He seems to intuitively know what my deal is. He isn't saying that I won't lower my calories and exercise more eventually, but for now...this is the deal. Consistency. Consistency. Consistency.

It's been tempting to drop the calories by a few hundred to see if that helps, but I'm trying to be a follower...this is hard for my Aquarius "likes to be a leader" self.  So, I've put my energy into saving pictures of outfits in fashion magazines I like. I also realized that even though these days I walk around town looking positively frumpy, all of this is temporary. All of it.

I looked through my closet and discovered that I have two skirts that fit me now (and would 50 pounds up or down) and a couple of t-shirts...(along with some pretty things that I kept after the big closet clear-out that do not fit, but could fit sooner than later). I have lots of ballerina flats and some pretty bras. So, this means that all summer long I could wear the skirts and t-shirts with alternating jewelry and flats.  It's not the breezy sheer-skirted summer I dreamed of last year, but it's doable.  By fall, I should be feeling better and maybe looking thinner so I can leave the wardrobe worries until then.  What a relief.

It was helpful to not think about buying clothes and trying things on still weighing more than I did a few months ago. It's also helpful to know that I weigh less than I did one month ago. It's just a relief to have something to put on...I can't wear my hot pink sweater when it's eighty degrees.     

We've been watching our money and there haven't been any professional hair colorings since December (I gave up my much loved leg and bikini waxing long before that), but today I decided that something must be done about my eyebrows...soon. A waxing or threading is in order. I'm also trying to find a reliable natural haircolor one can do at home (any ideas?). 

I rather like Lorrie's way of laying things out on the line, so I decided to "Go Public" more often with my stats and goals-short and long-term.   

• Current Weight: 243 pounds
• Current Calories: 2000 max-1900 min-Read the previous post before commenting that it's too high (she wrote defensively)
• Exercise: Two thirty-minute walks per day-average 3 miles per hour. Ugh, this makes me cringe...it's so much a pride issue of mine to walk faster and farther.  I'm more upset posting this about this than about posting my weight.
• Water: At least three liters

Long-Term Goal: 130 pounds
Short-Term Goal: 2 pounds (To break the Pat Patton Five)

Tomorrow I'm going to post a few days of menus...this will help me with my shopping anyway.  And you will be blown away by the amount of food...2000 calories while making smart choices goes a long way.

Comments

[Angela]

I always get lost in your writings, no matter what the subject you write so openly, honestly and beautifully, it's a treat to read. I am so not a goal setter and I hope your "slowing down" to succeed will inspire me to do the same.
I'm always trying to do more rather than take my time and do one thing well...
Those 2 thirty minute walks would be a lot better with a dog ;)
I am really looking forward to your menus!!!

[Christine Marie]

Open,honest & beautiful...couldn't have said it better myself.

I am on a mission to find that Natural Hair Color....will report soon! But...you are on your own with the 'waxing' deal. :-) :-)